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A Broken SoulA Broken Soul
One more broken soul
Laying shattered on the floor
Inside cut by cruel words.
Outside cut by the sweet blade.
A dream of a save world
In which can save me.
Reality hits me now and then
Because you can’t.
You would have to search
For every piece of my broken soul.
I can’t make you do that
All those shards could cut you
But we can’t both bleed.
What shall I do?
Wait until you can save me?
Save me and my soul?
I had that I can only deny this love to you
Because this love destroyed me
You broke me, you are the only one who can fix me.
CopingBreathe in air
deep and slow
close your eyes,
but don't let go
Grip the blade
then let it fall
erase the pain,
erase it all
Feet in contact
with the ground
all the same,
to weight and shame
from hooded eyes,
from crying skies
The pressure is tearing me down.
I'm on my knees.
I don't want to do it!
But do I have a choice?
The temptation almost kills me!
I'm shaking inside,
I'm screaming inside,
Try to fight the impulse.
It's so hard, so hard to stand there,
I lay naked on the floor,
On the ground of control.
I don't want to lose control.
I don't want to hurt the people anymore.
I don't care that I hurt myself,
But I hurt the people I love.
They say that they feel with me.
But I know that they can't understand.
EnoughYou want to be enough for everyone
Reckless enough and careful enough
Skinny enough and sinuous enough.
If your mask fits properly
Nobody cares about what is behind.
If your eyes shine
Nobody cares why
If it's beauty or fun or if this are tears.
As long as you fit in
But you just fit in when you are enough
And it's so hard to be enough
And it's so much harder not to be enough.
To those who pressure others
because they think they are the only ones worth living
the only ones who are perfect.
You should know that no one is perfect.
Not everybody is like you.
People who are different aren't less important.
They are as good as you
As good as everybody else
Think about that
And about what you can do to people
When you want them to be enough
To be perfect...
IowaIf you visit Iowa,
you'll call her fields empty,
but she wasn't born that way.
A part of her was carved out
when she was ripped between Virginia
and the purple mountains of New Mexico.
Her gold hair, she tore it out when she realized
it didn't make her a princess.
She laid her locks strung along every road
leading somewhere else.
White hairs on her cheeks
are scars from winter.
Her hair darkens with the dampness
of summer rains.
The storms are never silent,
but neither is life when there's a tear
in your childhood where
a parent ought to be.
I've been flooded by Iowa's sorrow.
The only way I can distract her from her own voided landscape
is if I hate myself harder than she cries.
She just wants to fly
and I want to bus or train,
not because I fear death, but because
I want to take living slow.
It's the only way I ever feel.
From the air it's hard to watch Earth's hips move.
But Earth can't compare to the country.
That's my girl.
Full grown even when harvesting season's j
To depression, for creating days without endWake up to the realization that you've been awake
for seconds, minutes, hours.
You've been awake in this warm, dark room
and you don't know how long it's been
but now you're conscious
and it starts again--
the pain, strong and steady, in your chest.
You gain consciousness in this too warm morning
and your thoughts whir in endless loops
because it's either that or face the weight in your chest.
Light breaks though the window, soft and unwelcome
but you take it as a reluctant gift--
a new distraction from the feelings awake in your chest.
Awake, but not conscious.
So you think yourself in circles a little while longer
waiting for those quiet pains
(the constant reminder)
to gain consciousness.
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